A Beautiful Mind

9:57PM - Survey says...

I have a secret aversion to:

mean girls that everyone loves
FISH (in any form)

the OC
Toni Collete

people who are v. sensitive or get offended v. easily
over-the-top violent movies

20 year old actors playing high schoolers, 
anyone who names their children things like "cantelope" or "moonunit"

people who "write poetry"
eating anything with sauce while watching csi

tea
most jewlery excluding braclets, watches, and necklaces


i secretly like:

WWE smackdown
romance mystery novels (not the extreme ones)

Nintendo 64
red bean cakes

mcdonald's quarter pounders
plaid pajama bottoms

when people think im from a different country
playing raquetball without safety goggles

knowing im better than someone

i secretly want to:

smash a car window
graffiti on a completely white wall

be in love
hack into someone's computer

go to a night club
wear color contacts for a day


I would never:

abuse an animal
spread a rumor

live in new york city
sabotage someone for a job

be in the army
drive an suv

listen to jazz music
take ballet again

do extreme PDA

6:36PM - sleigh bells ring (are you listening? no you are not)

so i put up chilli pepper lights in my room to mark the start of this beautiful season...which i have decided to partake of whether the christians want me or not. they are in honor of the red hot chilli peppers.

these days all i feel like doing (well any day for that matter) is curling up with some food and beverage (preferably something that is not past it's experation date like the oj jenny found in the back of her fridge from may 2006) and doing whatever drawing, watching a movie,

reading a good book. im really in a baking mood too. i mean ive always liked cooking but something about this month makes me want to bake things...things like pie and cookies and little children (ahhhh...you totally didnt catch that did you, i say BAKE THE CHILDREN) you know, the usual.

it makes me sad that all of our friends are freaking out about their grades right now because i am suprisingly nonplussed (i have no idea what im trying to say here) about the issue of college at least until after winter break.

the people in my english class think that i am insane because i have read like all of jane austen's books (thanks a lot linda for introducing me to the books and movies) and i truly believe they hate me
there was a v. funny incident however with someone ahem, who will one day be the anitchrist we know and love, when he commented that Elizabeth had very huge "knockers" according to the cover of the book. he really said "necklace".

i started to convulse with laughter and cry, and sadly no one understood the miscommunication because i realized then that these people werent as perverted as my friends are. tsk tsk.

perhaps i will start to update more. we will see.

11:36PM

1. My ex is still...
ummm short? it was second grade so who knows?

2. I am listening to...
Stadium Archadium or at least i was in the kitchen at jpd

3. Maybe I should...
persue an interest that i havent been focusing on

4. I love...
perfect endings...but only in movies because in real life they make me jealous

5. My bestfriends...
make me feel like a bad/ugly person because they are so awesome...thats what friends are for

6. I dont understand...
how people can understand current events and politics so well it amazes me

7. I'm craving...
male attention, pumpkin pie, and eggnog

8. I miss...
italy, 4th grade, solitude without obligations, raquetball

9. The meaning of my screen name is...
slamdunk...im short (hah) and i used to play basketball. i really should change it

10. Love is...
something that i want so badly but will seemingly never get

11. Somewhere, someone is...
thinking about this question

12. I will always...
gossip. i wish i wouldnt but i always will.

13. Forever seems like...
a figmant of our imaginations

14. I never ever want to lose....
a pet, a relative, a friend, or my sense of humor

15. My cell phone...
always seems to run out of battery, never gets service, and only can take like 5 pictures

16. When I wake up in the morning...
I am constantly reminded of how much i like to sleep

17. I get annoyed at...
being unable to stop my bad habits and control my addictions

18. Parties are...
very fun, but they never live up to your expectations

19. My pets are...
basically my favorite living things on earth

20. Kisses are...
the most romantic thing ever

21. Today I...
was utterly useless

22. I really want...
something to look forward to.

7:44PM - lala

I'm soooo active right now it is ridiculous. Not the kind of running around active (unless you include chasing after luna) but the subtley active activeness of activity.

luna is still adorable although i can forsee that i will have no social life in the future and i apologize in advance if i cant make it to something but keep trying.  she insists on eating her tail, which is fine by me because it means she isnt eating my arms or cat poop. 

(why do we have cat poop in our back yard you ask? ...the world will never know, but one can expect the neanderthals to be involved more or less)


we are trying to get people to play instruments for our jazz medley for jpd. i really hope it works out but i have dellusions of grandeur. im like ooohh, lets get dancers and a horn and strings and costumes...and then i remember we are mere high schoolees who have absolutely no time or resources.

i really need a dress for homecoming and of course my mom doesnt want to get me one because i am the second child and as the second child (as all second children know) we are never as loved as the first child. the second child never gets new clothes and their parents are never suprised by anything they do. its a fact of life. i dont even want to have to think about getting a dress. yuck. shopping. (pwft...i spit on you, you dirty dirty past-time)

6:12PM - BELLA LUUUUNA

Yay! luna is finally home. blah blah blah. i would list mundane and cute details but id rather just blather on about it in person. the one thing i will say is that she is adorable despite attempts to eat leaves, my hair, and my arms. i will attempt to post pictures now.

8:04PM - what are eyeballs made out of?

So today I went to the optometrist for my yearly delightful visit...and guess what? i need to get glasses. only part time, but still. the good news is the so-

called glasses are relatively attractive but somehow i think my actual eye is bigger than the lense. tehehe. in the car i was telling my mom that i really 

wanted one of those ridiculous monacle things because my right eye is basically the only one that is bad. hah. imagine that. im sitting in class and i cant 

see the board, so i pull a monacle out of my pocket protector and it somehow gets snagged on my sweatshirt and as i struggle to untangle it i light my 

arm on fire with a bunsen burner and am forced to take my clothes off and use one of those indoor chemistry showers. ahh. that is my nightmare. I 

always wonder what eyes are really made of. I mean have you ever touched your eye? its like a gummy bear. not to sound gross, but i really wonder what 

combination of things yield  this strange rubbery stuff.  anyway, im kind of worried about the jpd auditions but i know we will all probably do well, they need 
us anyway.

i went on a tour of  ucla and a sorority. the sorority house was really nice but whoa, some of their traditions (no offense) are kind of old-fashioned. they have this special ceremony for girls who are about to get "pinned" by their frat boyfriends. and if you are a senior and this hasnt happened to you, you are supposed to feel embarrased and humiliated. my point is that it is sad to see a generation of woman who pretend the world is just as pure and as sweet as ever. a world where everyone has a serious and meaningful relationship with the opposite sex and we all get engaged in college. im sorry it just made me angry. but hey, sororities arent for everyone i guess.

i have to go work on things. ill update sometime in the near future.

5:21PM - yaaaaaaaaaar (viking yell)

so...school? thoughts, anyone?  i really want it to be coldish for a couple of reasons:

1. i can wear my cute cold weather clothes
2. my favorite season in terms of weather is the fall because it seems really comfortable and romantic to me
3. it means that thanksgiving is just around the corner...and then christmas

today during club rush week i walked by the i luv christ club. not that there is anything with loving christ and being religious but it just felt really weird to see it at school because prep isnt generally a serious place-- i mean we talk about christ in reference to christina. so anyway i just think it is a bit strange but that's ok.

is it just me or is history kind of strange this year? i mean i don't know why but it just seems unreal until we actually have a test. and for some reason the periods seem shorter- probably because it takes 15 minutes to walk between classes.

uggg. life is killing me right now. i get to see some of my friends, but others i never see and its very dissappointing. WE ARE GOING TO HAVE FRIDAY NIGHT DINNERS IF IT KILLS US PEOPLE. DONT RESIST. JUST GO WITH IT. this is the only way to keep our sanity and therefore is quite necessary. 

WE NEED TO FIGURE OUT AN ACT FOR JPD. PLEASE CAN WE GET IT TOGETHER (ESPECIALLY PEOPLE WHO SING)! PLEEEASE!

4:23PM - disaster at the dmv...what else is new

i had a really sucky morning in general which only paid off in the end i suppose. this week alone i have been to the dmv 3 times. now although this may not seem terrible, anyone who has been to the dmv will tell you how evil the people that work there are. so the first time i go to try and take my permit test they tell me that i need a birth certificate. w/e. mean people- i made an appointment which i of course missed. second time i go and they tell me i need to be enrolled in a f$#@ behind the wheel course. NOBODY TOLD ME THAT. why do i need to be in a behind the wheel course if i can't legally drive yet because i don't have my %$@%$@#%$#@%@#$^#$@^ (REDICULOUSLY LONG CURSE WORD) permit yet. so they make me leave again and drive 30 minutes each way to a drivers ed place to sign up and come all the way back to the crummy Winnetka dmv which is in like the hood...no joke. ANYWAY, i get back there finally and they call my number and then this stupid lady is like nope. sorry. you can't do this because YOUR BIRTH CERTIFICATE IS NOT VALID. you need a passport. THEY NEVER TOLD ME THAT. are they saying that my birth was not valid, that i dont exist as a person. god! i think i would know. the lady goes "how can we verify if this is REALLY your birthday?" HOW DOES THAT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH DRIVING? do i look like a scam artist????? 
finally my mom just screamed at them in front of all of these pathetic looking middle-aged people at the dmv and magically my birth certificate was fine. to add insult to injury i think my vision is getting worse and my picture turned out like complete crap (i didnt know that was also your lisence picture but w/e). in the end i ended up getting my permit THANK THE HEAVENS, because god knows my mom would probably never have taken me back there.

sorry i just had to rant. the end. i am content again until i have to go back to that awful place.

11:07PM

Yes my friends...its true. i have skipped my teen years and my youth and have suddenly become...(gasp) middle-aged. at least thats how i feel. it all began when i did my spanish homework without being prompted and ended with my research on indoor potted plants. (for my room of course). this is how i spend my days. alas, i only hope that one day i will not long for "soap operas" and "installing things" more than normal people look forward to learning to drive or breaking their fingers text messaging their posse.

DONT WORRY. all hope is not lost as i still throw myself at sex and the city, the attractive opposite sex, and things that will give me heart attacks. sigh. if only i hadn't spent my day installing internet on my computer with an air of almost disgusting glee or if i hadn't actually BAKED COOKIES to send to my sister like a 50 year-old house wife.

i read sunset magazine for crying out loud--and if im lucky martha stewart living. Literally the notepad next to my desk says (and i quote) "Hibiscus? Rosemary?" My sole reason for excitement is waiting for my wall decals to come...and going back to school shopping. I suddenly feel the need to watch the slutty nymphos who prance around on MTV.

perhaps i will end this slum by a)watching a movie on "the oxygen network", b)getting out more, c) hanging out with people more deluded than myself

THE WORD OF THE DAY IS: MEGALOMANIAC-- A person with a psychopathological condition characterized by delusional fantasies of wealth, power, or omnipotence.

2:07PM - stuff

so today i worked at the food pantry where i encountered a really pretty male transvestite/transgender guy. most exciting part of my day. ATTENTION EVERYONE- I AM MISSING ONE BLACK CONVERSE SHOE. IF YOU HAVE IT, PLEASE FEEL FREE TO RETURN IT TO ME PRONTO. it was probably in my p.e. locker. oh well. i finally got my shezule:

1. precalc (d)
2. FREEEEE
3. Spanish AP Lang (B)
4. US History AP (C)
5. chemistry
5. (five again) drawing
7. english hon.

5:54PM - survey says...

What is your...

LEAST FAVORITE SMELL- rotting fruit on a hot summer day (yuuuuummy)

FAVORITE ETHNIC DISH- that would have to be onion pancakes

FAVORITE STRANGE ICE CREAM FLAVOR- red bean ice cream alll the way. ooo. yes.

LEAST FAVORITE CELEBRITY- mischa barton, toni collete, definitely mel gibson

WEIRDEST DREAM (SUMMARY)- i dont know, im pretty sure it involved people chasing after me in a swamp and not being able to run- i think my sister was pregnant and my mom was a pig

FAVORITE YEAR OF YOUR LIFE- im pretty sure that was 4th grade in a nutshell

FAVORITE GUILTY PLEASURE- lets see, death cab, dixie chicks, chocolate cake, wildfire

CLOSEST NEAR-DEATH EXPERIENCE- well...i guess being in a car crash but not even that was too bad- so the earthquake?

LEAST FAVORITE COLOR COMBONATION- orange and purple

FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING- my eagles shirt or my $15 jeans that are falling apart

LEAST FAVORITE WORD- silly (duh!), or disestablishmentarianism


would you rather...

SPEND LIFE WITHOUT BOOKS OR MUSIC/MOVIES- whoa. i say books now but i definitely mean movies/music

SPEND LIFE WITHOUT LOVE OR WITHOUT DESIRE- without love i suppose

SPEND MOST OF YOUR LIFE INSIDE OR OUTSIDE- outside. i think.

CAMP ON THE BEACH OR STAY IN A CABIN IN THE WOODS- camp on the beach any day.

NEVER USE COMPUTERS OR NEVER USE THE TELEPHONE- never use the telephone for sure


have you ever...

SEEN A HORROR FILM IN A MOVIE THEATER- nope, and i dont plan on it

RIDDEN ON A ROLLERCOASTER- yup. fo sho.

HAD A HALLUCINATION (natural or otherwise)- i really hope not, but maybe my life is a lie.

SEEN A GHOST- absolutely NOT.

GIVEN YOURSELF A SHOT- nope. and i hope i never will.

STOLEN SOMETHING- i dont think i did so intentionally but probably by accident

ACCOMPLISHED ALL OF YOUR NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS- well i got uber close last year but i chickened out with the kareokee...eventually i did it.

GIVEN SOMEONE UNDESERVING THE BLAME- yes. this is human nature. i am a human. i think.

WORN SOMETHING INSIDE OUT/BACKWARD AN ENTIRE DAY BY ACCIDENT- yes. stupid people. TELL ME WHEN I DO THIS!

LAUGHED SO HARD SOMETHING CAME OUT OF YOUR NOSE- no. ive seen it happen though.

TAKEN BALLET- havent we all?


the thing i want most...

this summer- well, ummm. cool makeup, cute clothes, a nice tan, companionship

this school year- a FUN time and good grades


WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF...


YOU MIRACULOUSLY GOT PREGNANT- ouch. no idea.

SOME CUTE BUT STRANGERISH GUY TRIED TO KISS YOU- duck and run probably...maybe a few knees would be flying in convenient places

YOU GOT LOST IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE- stay put. hah! ya right. wander around aimlessly and freak out more like

YOUR FRIENDS THREW THINGS AT YOU- throw them back biatch. i have a mean pitcher's arm.

SOMEONE SPREAD A RUMOR ABOUT YOU THAT EVERYONE BELIEVED- not come to school anymore. move to texas and buy some houndogs and a gun and live out my days as a rancher. not.

YOU HAD TO GO UNDER A LADDER OR GET HIT BY SPRINKLERS- probably get hit by sprinklers. im a little superstitious

YOUR PARENTS DISOWNED YOU- that would be a bit unusual. maybe a good thing. ill wait and see.


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3:52PM - stupid stupid stupid pms

am in vair vair low spirits...my madre dissapproves of my passionless life...there is truly nothing worse than dissappointment honestly

a couple days ago i had a doctors appointment which i was really psyching myself out about. its just something about anticipated pain that makes me feel awful. anyway, my paper gown did NOT have dinosaurs on it. i was almost crying.

the stupid nurse gave me a stupid finger prick and before she did i was like:

Me: Do you want me to sit down?

Nurse: um...not unless you're going to faint. (evil grin/chuckle)

Me: Don't make me slap you biatch! (not really but i wish)

i then proceeded to sit in my nuddy gown for like an hour listening to the tragic and miserable screaming of this really cute boy who was in the room next door. not only that, but the doctor MY doctor, who i dislike was TEASING him. stupid fools. god. o not only that but i carried around my OWN URINE in a dixie cup for like an hour because no one would take it from me.

Me: ummmmm...do you uh know where i should put this???

Nurse: (maniacal cackle) um give it to the lady with the thing.

Me: (having panic attack and dying of shame) ummmm

Nurse: (in a snipity voice) fine ill take it.

Me: (dumps small dixie cup and contents on nurse's head)TAKE THAT!!!

its like hello? this is not humiliating enough, being sixteen and carrying around a cup of my own pee. honestly. it doesnt help either that my doctor always asks what grade im in...like cant you just look at my records ive been seeing you since i was 1.
he also implied that i was lazy because i told him i thought i was anemic because im always tired and he was all up in my grill about stuff...anywho. im 5'3" and 1/2. yeah! and he kept asking if i had a boyfriend.
now wouldnt you be down???

Doctor: So are you sneaking off to see your boyfriend?

Me: (smiling sweetly) Nope.

Doctor: What are you doing this summer?...hanging out with that boyfriend?

Me: (gritting teeth) Nope.

Doctor: Giving your parents trouble with that boyfriend?

Me: (gives self a shot of heroin kept in the doctor's top drawer i bet)

and...now im very nauseous and ill. which prevented me from hanging out with friends so i sat and read all day and felt disgusted with my self.

im reading 4 books at once which is definitely NOT a thing to brag about. it just means my attention span is like 2 seconds: In Cold Blood (very very good i recommend it highly), Lady Chatterly's Lover (slightly "pornographic"), Sons and Lovers, and Turn of the Screw. yeesh.
still have not read Great Expectations but i finally caught up on my mounds of spanish homework which included listening to countless Enrique Iglesias songs...not kidding.

want to have everyone over soon. want to follow through with jane austen party plans/kickboxing classes/everything else i need to do including getting a haircut.

i am further depressed (not that you care) because i cant go the the $#@$#@ red hot chili peppers concert which ive literally been dying to see for 2 years. but thats stupid life. stupid stupid life. bad life. bad life.

Me: Why are you so cruel?

Life: I am only kind to the ridiculously good looking.

Me: What about really nice deserving people like myself?

Life: Have you looked in a mirror recently?

Me: (throws self in a pool)

if there is anything good that came out of going to the doctors office it was getting to read highlights...which i love. i could not find all of the objects in that stupid picture but i did learn a great joke:

Me: So i was sitting there and there were these two piecosts crossing the street.

You: what's a piecost?

Me: about 5 dollars.

that was submitted by sarah age 9. excellent. the two times ive told the joke the people didnt ask the right question. bummer.

4:21PM - website

ok. if you are bored like i usually am (ahem linda ahem) go to www.Myheritage.com and click on face recognition. then hit browse and upload the photo that you want. it takes a little while but in the end the computer will tell you which celebrity the people in the photo look like the most and how much of a match you are. it is tre fun and very addicting...and rather flattering really.

p.s. i am insane with paint fumes

9:06PM - boo

well i haven't updated for a while, but i am doing my part by leaving comments on everyones journal entries...the little that few people have written...ahem. anyway. i feel like i haven't seen everyone in forever even if i saw them like two weeks ago so i am formulating a plan to solve that.

i am in the process of painting my room. guess what color???? eh? eh? you shall never know. tehee. the small joys i can derive from life. sigh. SAT class is still sucky but now i am so beyond listening that i'm not even above shameless doodling (on pages that she checks), calculator secret messaging to others (not so secret), constant clock watching (the stupid hand never seems to move), and inappropriate daydreaming (which i will not go into). also, the room has noooo windows and yet it has an x-ray machine and a chalkboard with mystery formulas on it. i feel as though i'm in an opaque test tube.

my addiction to the scifi channel has sadly grown to a grotesque degree. between dark angel (woot) and this new show called eureka which is actually pretty good i am embarassed to be seen with myself (what else is new)

you know what show is terrifying??? csi. yup. disgusting. in one episode that my sister and i were watching there was a graphic severed head, a skinned/amputated body, and numerous pools of bloody plasma lurking like a lurker in the most unlikely of places. i then proceeded to watch House, where this girl gets her father drunk then seduces him and sleeps with him...and then it turns out she is a supermodel hermaphrodite. this was followed closely in disturbance by Law and Order Criminal Intent which was about masoginists (sp.?) who tied women up and made them strangle themselves in their underwear. how can people watch this stuff without becoming completely paranoid?

the funny thing about summer is you find yourself missing people you don't even like. for a month or two you are like whoa...i miss so-and-so. and then you get back to school and you go back hating them again.

btw. if anyone is looking for clothes go to 15dollarstore.com . everything there is fifteen dollars. i'm not really sure how it works because i just found out about it but the clothes are very cute.

vinnie has the "mange". that is when she gets all mangy and hurt. i hope she will be ok.
still have not taken driver's ed. im am vair vair behind. i haven't volunteered yet or played the drums and despite of the fact that i'm exercising ive somehow gained like 5 lbs which really isnt a big deal but somehow life isnt fair.

6:16PM - wicked

whhhhhhhhhhhhhhyyyyyyy is life so wicked? not only do i have to go to SAT class every day for two hours, and walk three blocks to get there in 105 degree weather, but there are noooooooooooooooo remotely cute guys. they all appear to be entering 9th grade and not only that, but the one person that doesnt appear to be entering ninth grade is this guy from my old school who (poor him uggghhh) has really really serious ADHD and he just randomly yells things out. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. im going to shoot someone. to make matters worse my teacher is EXACTLY like mrs. sheinkopf. im not kidding. but worse than that (if that is humanely possible) she talks in that voice. you know THAT voice. the one people use when talking to 5 year olds or public school slackers. ack. one day. ive been there one day and i am about ready to hurt someone!

PLEASE FRIENDS! BE NICE. TAKE ALLISON OUT OF HER CAGE ONCE IN A WHILE. GET ME OUT OF HERE!!! (RATTLES BARS) I NEED A SOCIAL LIFE! IT IS THE ONLY THING THAT CAN SAVE ME NOW. DONT NEGLECT ME JUST BECAUSE I LOOK LIKE IM 12 AND I HAVE A BAD TAN.

siiiiiiiiiigh. i am now planning on spending yet another night alone at zee dungeon with the remote in one hand and a quart of ice cream/syrup/marshmellows/cookies/soda in the other. look what you all have done. yup. i will now go numb my mind with falcon beach and sugar and maybe even general hospital if it is on. i hope you are happy.

8:01PM

ok. im back from italy/svizerlandy/deuschland/wherever all the other stupid plane layovers were. ive been traveling for 23 hours without sleep, but sadly am not tired...just dirty. going on an airplane for 12 hours straight has reminded me why i hate airplanes. they make you feel disgusting when you get off and i hate those stupid people who look good after a flight. they usually having louis vutton luggage.

im sad because i feel like summer is already almost over and i missed out on everything. im happy because i did vair well on the APs, although im still sure they sent me the wrong form. the trip was fun (i will explain more in detail later), and like other lunatics i am now obsessed with the world cup...especially england until they lost.

i will write more lata but yeah.

hopefully someone will come with me to see pirates sometime because i miss johnny....and orlando....and keira.

9:52PM - movies

Ok...so i failed the bio sat blah blah blah nothing new there...i know you dont care so i wont divulge any more information except for the fact that the procters were really mean and none of the other intelligent children i was with could understand how to fill in their name bubbles...i weep for the future

my parents allowed me to take a day off because i took the sat then went to bio tutoring AND english tutoring (ahhh dont you feel guilty?)
i sorta had a mini reese witherspoon movie fest (i love her) with just like heaven (terrible i must say) and cruel intentions (i will expand on this later) my mom bought me new shorts (thunder thighs, beware!) and then we played "volleyball" outside. she is terrible.
plus, whenever we go outside to play a "sport" she is always wandering off to pull up weeds or pick up poop or "straighten the grass". vair annoying.

Ten Movies that Give me Butterflies because they just are

1. Cruel Intentions: i dont only love this movie because ryan phillipe is the sexiest guy on earth with really nice lips, but it is absolutely adorable because although ending "tragically" (you can see it for yourself) in real life reese and ryan are the perfect couple, and their biracial children are pretty too

2. Ella Enchanted: i know everyone hates this movie, and while i dont like the guy as much as i used to one must admit that we all want something like that to happen to us...

3. Amelie: our favorite movie; moisseur quicompoo and amelie are adorable, although she might deserve better than a guy who works in a porn shop, this heroine is most awesome because she isnt a convential beauty aaaannnd... she doesnt automatically get the guy just by being slutty, she gets him by being unique and creative

4. Romeo and Juliet: cmon leonardo dicaprio and that other girl from my so called life are so appealing. especially in my personal favorite scene when they makeout in the pool. p.s. mercutio is black= this is a must rent

5.CASABLANCA: ok im sure NONE of you have seen this which is seriously depressing because it is possibly the most romantic movie of all time, (*gush*) although i personally do not find humphrey bogard attractive him and ingrid bergman are gorgeous...if only they had made babies eh?

6. The Notebook: sigh, although i did not cry the first time i saw it because i was forewarned (damn you all) it was incredibly romantic and honestly i thought really well done...the old people reeeeeeealy bug me but thats ok

7. The Graduate: i need not say any more except that the ending is incredibly intriguing

8. 10 Things I hate about you: yes, we have already been over this. heath ledger blah blah blah...my favorite part is not when he sings to her though, but when julia stiles recites that tragic poem (hence the name of the movie) to her english class...sigh, if only someone did that for me

9. Clueless: ive seen it maybe 100 times and it still doesnt fail to amaze me. alicia silverstone is soooo good you must admit and her and "josh" omg! my favorite part is when she comes down the stairs in this tiny dress and josh stares at her and her dad tells her date that if he does anything to his daughter he "has a 45 and a shovel"

10. Pride and Prejudice: saving the best for last, any version you like (my favorites are the A & E version, the one with Keira Knightly, and the one made in like 2000 which is a modern version) despite the inappropriate pants, when the Darcy in the the Keira version smiled it was like ahhhhh the gods have smiled...and the scene in the rain, yay!

that completes my temporary list of the top 10 movies that give me butterflies. please watch them. they make me feel almost happy after i see them. i am passing them on to you...use them wisely

peace out

8:45PM - lemon life

yesterday I sat on my bed...or layed or "reclined". all of the sheets were off. i love it when my bed is like that. just a matress.

(as a side note ive always wondered why they put flowers on a matress? its not like any will ever see them. its like. oooh! the pattern under your elaborate sheets is goooooorgeous. wherever did you get it?)

anyway i just sat there eating these brownie-esk cookies dipped in crunchy peanut butter on a spoon (that hasan has declared to be "the like best in the world". ) i layed there and ate and listened to my amelie cd (gracias a laurie). not only that but i listened to the same song (track 4) over and over and over again...now imagine that with strange opium dreams trotting through my mind...yes trotting

im ouuuuuut of it. IT. IT. IT. IT. echo echo echo

and i did this twice. again after i took a bubble bath (gracias a lauren) and listened to love line for like an hour. this is where i get all of my luuuuurve advice. or not. probably because it is a) deranged and b) dirty. but addicting a fascinating. unfortunately i have to turn it off whenever the mother walks in.

today my sister got her prom princess tiara. as soon as that shiny baby got in the door my mom and i ripped off the plastic and stuck it gracefully on my dog's head (poor old lass) and proceeded to take pictures with my digital camera (woot!) for like 20 minutes until the battery died.

i have reaaaally bad allergies right now...which is highly unusual, but considering that im a hypochondriac, very probable. i think im also alergic to sweat because my face was burning and my nose wouldnt stop running. delicious eh?

im attempting to get a freaking punching bag (used off of amazon) but my mom is doing that thing where she is skeptical and i cant do it. etc etc

loony looooove from me

3:00PM

i somehow	managed
to make	a table
which i cant	delete

i finally found a really awesome photo editing thing on my computer. its actually used to edit movies but you can do really cool things with it...almost like photoshop (which i really want) but not as good. photoshop is like 500 dollars. my sister tried to use her "connections" to get it for free...that didnt work...im bummed


there is no reasoning with her

8:00PM - fjdlkanfvjrngvejqglkrjgkljfad

I had waaaaaaaaaay to much contact with others humans today. its not like im a loner but i mean seriously people, did i ever say that i wanted to be hugged? or slapped? or petted? or poked at? no i dont believe i did.

IM NOT A ZOO ANIMAL FOR CRYING OUTLOUD! Although i have always really wanted to steal that sign mr. maggio has in his room. It says please do not bother, touch, harry, annoy, harass, poke, touch, assault...etc. the animals.

today at golf i did pretty well. i had about 2 good hits out of 100. not too shabby if i do say so myself. this one kid was attempting to coach me but it really didnt work out too well. the golf guys are pretty rad though...i think they hate us.

I realized recently that i really want to learn how to read tarot cards. if any of you are thinking of getting me a present that is an excellent idea (*hint *hint)